no matter what else happens now, i don't want you to go. i spent so long staring at your shadow that now it's hard to tell the difference between here and gone, so i scratch at my skin until your fingers slip between mine in the dark. i looked for you in everything. there wasn't... Continue Reading →
i don't know how to pull you back to me. if i did, i'd never have let you get so far away. it feels like there are oceans between us, and by this, i mean, every body of water labeled "ocean" stretches its arms out from me to you, and even the tide isn't enough... Continue Reading →
i somehow always find myself stuck somewhere between child and corpse. there are days where the sunlight tickles my eyelashes, dances across my cheeks, and i flit around, giddy in spite of myself. there are days where i cannot distinguish the light switch from a trigger, and i pull it just to see if i... Continue Reading →
to my brother, who- stop. you can't do this to yourself again. you keep running your fingers over his handprint on the basement door as if grazing it will make him feel the heaving in your chest and follow it back home. you can't do this to yourself again. you keep knocking on the door... Continue Reading →
trigger warning: brief mentions of mental illness. i thought of you today. my entire body went rigid with the picture of you in my mind, and i couldn't tell if you were actually in front of me or not. the braids in my hair weighed me down as though you were pulling on them, but... Continue Reading →
The last thing that I must warn you of is of how I love. I love so hard. I will lace your fingers between my own, and sing you into a love song. I will whisper your name to the moon so that when it dies each night, the sun will rise each morning with... Continue Reading →
The third thing in which I must warn you, is of my need to heal. I will put bandages over your raw and bloody knuckles and hold your fingertips in the palm of my hand to kiss your knuckles so gently that you hardly notice that my lips are there at all. I will pick... Continue Reading →
Dear Future Husband, I am writing now, as young as I am, to forewarn you of many things. The first of many things that I wish to warn you of, is my ever wandering mind. There are days that I am content to sit on the... Continue Reading →
"I just want you to know that you never lost me." I was sitting on his porch swing, my hands clinging to the bottom of it to steady myself. It took exactly seven long breaths to get the bile rising in my throat to subside so that I wouldn't throw up, and he wrapped one... Continue Reading →
The feeling of the sun's rays dancing over your eyelashes and warming your face; it is the color of warmth. It is the color of your mother's heartbeat when she pulls you into her chest, and the silent clashing of two people's souls. It is the the color of your lover whispering your name in... Continue Reading →
You Are Not Alone. 